forgiveness, part 1: jason ("thing 1"). 9/28 go 10/7, 2021. text mesage. TX&OK ,

jason, whose original drafted name was "thing 1," claims a couple different distinctions in my life.

1. he's been forgiven before

2. only two people truly incited a violent response, he's #2
3. he's one of the Dozen, and one of the most influential

4. he is top 3 most indebted - $1500+
5a. he's an ex-boyfriend, though he's str8
5b. he does not think of me as an ex
6. he's one of three current male prostitutes i've 'dated'
7. he's one of the few left i still talk to out of all this

jason is 23, very good looking and doesn't realize it, and he's hopeless addicted. to heroin. he has never confirmed that. i have it from excellent sources, verified by his behavior.

jason wouldn't admit any of this, even if caught. that's the other jason, not this one. there are two of them. i hate one, and so does he. most days, we hate the same one.

dialogue: forgiven, part 1

character: jason, drafted as thing 1

dates: 9/28/21 to 10/7/21 

breakdown: Cal (TX & OK) jason (FL) commentary delete insertion add punctuation replacement excision (>2 lines)

Cal (TX) - 9/28/21 @ 10:39am
Jason. PleSe come

jason                       
Where an how

Cal                   
I'm in Dallas right now

I started dating this guy sort of he - like, was like you and asked for money and then he never did it anything. It's hard to explain. We became involved because I thought it he was a hooker.

He was not, he's just a Finesser. I've gotten nothing out of it, but he's gotten money for from me because I care

I am physically and mentally exhausted from this whole process I was in Houston that, then I was in Austin, now I'm in Dallas, and in Oklahoma City next week. 

I think I've got too much shit with me.

jason - 9/2821 @ 1154am     
Ur good an wow damn thats crazyyyy

I move from Dallas, TX to Denton, TX to Oklahoma City, OK.

A significant amount is excised here for brevity - several dozen lines, almost exclusively Cal's. All the information comes up later in other places. I am only telling jason all of my sorrows. He is sympathetic, mostly.

 

Characters get to tell their own stories.

Cal (OK) - 10/5/21 @ 8:54pm
I swear this is like, "how many bad things that happen to me be in a small period of time."

I forgive you. Sure I might get mad again one day, but it's forgiven. I can't keep holding onto the parts of people I approve of. 

There's one jason who has gone to extraordinary measures to Be my friend. stupid shit we both did stupid shit. I forgive All of jason-  Even the asshole who shows up asking for money before he has anything in his hand and is clearly trying to scam scare me, - all of him. 

turns out I'm really bad at texting.

Oh, me and my melodrama!

jason - 10/6/21 @ 11:42am   
I feel like death

Im hungry dopeless an i feel like complete death my body hurts ass i hands done nothing but sleep an im miserable

jason - 10/7/21 @ 258pm     
I need HELP can u olz send me 15 or 20 buck for lunch
👍

A picture accompanies the request.

He's in a reflective work vest,

with another man in the picture.

The other man appears to be working, unaware.

jason is taking the selfie.

Cal - 10/7/21 @ 4:31pm     
Are you working!

jason has never had a job in his life.

people just hand him stuff - it's crazy to see.

he is also very good at manipulating me.

after all, he said 'boyfriend' first.

he knows my triggers, knows how much i value work.

jason                      
An yes i am sir

Cal - 10/7/21 @ 4:57       
Isn't is awful, working? I've only got a little bit right now but I always encourage work even though it sucks

I send $10 via CashApp. 

jason -10/8/21 @ 5:00pm    

Thanks bruh hows it goin

in the interim between the $10 sent and the thanks, 

where i was starting to get worked up over the imagined insult,

the universe aligned and the cosmos created synchronicity.

kenny, the unnamed 18 y/o, declined a CashApp repayment.
and i hadnt heard from him in a while.